Tuesday 3rd April 2012 - Taman Negara

Today my heart aches. I was packing up all my things with the intention of leaving Taman Negara and then started thinking and the realisation that I hadn't thought of Hugh hardly at all for the past couple of days got me upset.

I should be happy but instead the realisation hurts me so deeply. This person has been such a massive part of my life for the last five years but he has made it so easy for me to just let him go and has seemingly let me go so easy. I haven't heard a word from him since I left and he showed no interest in making amends before I left - not to leave on good terms.

The worse thing I could probably have done was what I did - started looking through photos on facebook. I loved what we were and I loved him but then I think about the lows and the things I needed and didn't get and I know in my heart it was the right thing but it kills me to know that this person, who I still love so much, no longer wants to be in my life.

I needed a hug and wanted my family and friends so bad :-(

To make matters worse I found out that the bus out of this place left daily at 8.30am - it was now 12.30 so I would have to check back into Agoh Chalets and spend one more night before catching a bus for 10hours to Penang.

After checking back in I headed to Mama Chop to have some food. My stomach still felt a bit dodgy so I ordered chicken noodle soup - although it didn't stop me from also ordering a banana lassi (like a banana milkshake but made with yoghurt) and a plate of watermelon and pineapple. I spent the whole day sitting there on the river updating my blog. I caught a lot of amusement from the guys that worked in the restaurant. There was a massive black and yellow bug flying around and I anxiously asked what it was. One of the guys told me it was a bee. I asked if it stung humans. He said yes. I said does it only sting when it is angry. He said yes and so I relaxed a bit - i wasnt planning on going anywhere near it! The revelation that this big thing stung humans seemed to come as a surprise to one of the other guys that worked there, he kept his eye on it constantly - which then caught the attention of the 3year old boy whose parents worked in the restaurant. He looked up to see what the guy was looking at and grabbed an empty plastic bottle and stood on a chair ready to take on the bee! All the men at the table told him no in Malay but he kept standing there swinging the bottle in the direction of the bee - this kid had no fear! Then the bee flew down and came about an inch from this kids face hovering towards him. He froze with a shocked look on his face - he stopped swinging that bottle so fast!!! The bee finally started flying away, at which point he unstuck from his frozen position and started swinging the bottle towards the bee that was already gone! I laughed hysterically with tears rolling down my face.

Whilst sitting at the table the guy I had booked the jungle tour with came over and sat with me. I didnt know his name until now - it was Ami. We spoke for a while and he played on my phone for a while. He then told me to walk with him - he was going to meet a friend near where I was staying. He bought curry puffs and fried pumpkin and drinks for us and we just chilled on a table and chairs until him and his friend went off on a scooter and I went to my room.